necessity (pure)

Could we say if
our phones weren't
working
or had their batteries
drained, such as last time,
that distinguishing
vellum from
tracing paper,
for example,
should not be fascinating
as long as there
are images
to see
into
opposed to
see again in?

the bars on a phone
would be peculiar if
imagined elsewhere,
seeing
three hollowed petri
dishes stacked beside
fourteen more of the same.
it'd be like more time
or more errors
or more notches
of wastefulness,
as every word
cannot be
recalled for
later use.
only
some.
of
very few.

the option
to misdirect
is here
as what i understood
from
your
speaking.

but how could
you
embody
any truth
that is not
a tracing,
for example,
of how, for one,
we have taken
so much from each other
because we speak so
infrequently, and consequently,
earnestly,
only to find
our own mirroring
thoughts?

i guess i'm wondering
if exclaimed in my voice
is what's just as
apparent in yours -
trivialities
time
sorrow
to spare
and leak
out into the world
that gave it
to us,
as if to
accept as
an image
we only
ever felt,
and so,
missed.



n.romero
5.5.08

a dream (pt.1)

One man kills the boss

and becomes the boss

(everyone thinks at one point

or another about flying

Being a bird because

birds can fly and

everyone is on the ground)

Another man kills the boss

and becomes the boss

f. martinez

May 2008

Morning Libations

sugar in the hair
warm hips
and a casual burn

sleek death

[                           ] trails


-Saehee Cho April 2008

on living all ways

What is not real about this life?
What is not real about this life?
What is not real about this life?
What is not real about this life?
What is not real about this life?
Your recent desire to succeed as success is measured.

Is this moment unreal?
No. This is real.

Is this moment unreal?
No. This is real. It’s real. It’s as real as nothingness was. It is real. It is real. It is real like nothingness is real. Was nothingness real? Of course! What do you intend to mean? Of course. Of course. It is all as real as it is nothing. This is not equilibrium. It can’t be equilibrium or the discourse on aliveness and deadness, which are both states of living, could not be real. Death is real so long as death is alive as a concept to the living. What were to happen if concepts that prevented longevity through their negative influence on the body and mind, what were to happen if these concepts were upstaged by other desires – such as the want of verisimilitude – again?

Do you feel distressed?
Yes.

Why?
Because the difficulty of living is non-existent to people who choose to live uncomplicated lives marked by ritual. Because the difficulty of life, being measured here by the willingness to accept errors of others, not the errors that cause us to be late for work, but the errors of others that cause us to debate our own worth, our own utterances, our own abilities towards achieving at least complacency in this realm of suffering, us, who can help, even!, who can prevent major suffering in others if we tried harder, this is not difficult, according to some, not becoming a malcontent, but I disagree.

This became the problem for me. There is a difference between how success is measured within society, and how it is measured by the people who want me to live. I want to say about living, “I am part of it too,” that is, it is not a part of me, hence, I’m am not the fragment, I am the complete one. And I want to say this without implying society has won.





nancy

STACKING

The city.

Changes.

Depending upon the point of perspective.

You see.


Don’t mention it.

How it is always growing.

Like a tree.

You don’t see.





f. martinez
feb. 2008

hajimemashite: a memo

Imagining having guests in our
beautifully decorated home/house.
Conversation will reveal my
occupancy of this residence.
Then, as if an inevitable
fall, disclosure of a relationship
between you and myself
will cause the interrogator/guest
to smile, then, to wonder.
This wonder, such wonder,
is only of one thing.

The world functions as one
big, giant, intricate
pyramid scheme in my
eyes. I don't want to
get involved in what it means
to live, in living, because
then I would be a
participant, incorporating
more, coercing by influence
an acceptance of that
which gave me no original
choice, what will give
them no choice, the
acceptance of equality as an
idea; translation; that
we can fully and truly
communicate all that is
not loss.


nancy romero 2.15.08

On Considering Our Considerations

We say the moon, forgetting it’s only
a moon.
I suppose we are justified in saying the sun,
though we sometimes admit it's only
a star.


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